I’ve been feeling a bit down lately, some of it is due to allergies and some is due to well, just life itself.
I think this cold has really sapped my energy, and just the fact that I have been on my own for over a year now after a breakup has been eating away at me.
I’ve had many chances of meeting women but I seem to shy away from saying anything to them. This has been a common theme in my life for reasons that I don’t understand. Some guys have the gift of gab like my heating rep, who can basically walk up to anybody and start up a conversion about HVAC repairs without batting an eyelash. I, on the other hand, tend to overthink things and think myself right out of talking to people. Then I go home and feel worse about myself as I sit by my air conditioner trying to cool down. I guess you learn this kind of stuff when you are younger, but at 55 years of age I don’t know if I have it in me any more to learn the skills. Working for the cooling supplier gets me to talk to people, but usually they are men who come in to work on their air conditioners and heaters and not any women that are in my league. I will give it a go today and try to talk with a stranger when I go for my bike ride along the beach. My HEPA filter salesman buddy told me to try it in baby steps.